Transit musings

Sitting alone at corner of the airport.Colombo airport. Transit time. 2 more hours before flight back to Bangalore. Then go home , get prepared and again reach airport.. Badsha going home. Those drumbeats in heart. Those thought process before you meet parents.. whom you love the world. It's crowded airport. But sure transit time alone is lonely. You can read, reread the whatsapp message from people who matter to you. Then you tend to think how much you matter to them. It's true..We should not introspect.. in hearts of hearts you kNow you matter nothing. This life is only to give. Never ask. You don't deserve love. The world needs to get the last drop out from you. Once this is figured out... I am at peace. Tired, lonely but peaceful. The hurt, rejections, the losses, the ein, the snide remarks... Nothing matters.  Once I know I matter to none. I become one of universe. When your life long it has been only giving without reciprocity.. it matters nothing.

Sleepless in Singapore

Thunderclaps faded but still the echo remains. Surprised to see heavy rains in Singapore during end September . Was not feeling like eating . The full day was in meetings, training sales and faes. That too not of my own team. But it takes me hardly 5 minutes to connect. Was doing it as first run after role change. Then the dinner with new boss. Andy has been a great champion for me. Hope I can meet and exceed the expectations of all. Right now I am sleepless... A plethora of emotions....Feeling chilled.. stopped the ac. Listened to quite Katong neighborhood. Sometimes silence of surrounding speak so many things. I need to listen.
So many hopes and misgivings. A sense of success along with trepidation. Failure is never an option. So let me work harder... It is 1am in Katong... I know when I will look back on this day..I can proudly tell myself.. I tried my best..Efforts were 100 percent plus. Time only will say if this sleepless soul will get peace someday...